none of you deserve this or need to respond but i just need to vent somewhere
here's one thing that bugs the hell out of me is that why do people feel the need to ignore me. i mean come on i'm always initiating every damn conversation with people or that it seems that if they do they want something from me. i usually don't cuss but, i think i need to for right now. i am so sick of people who blatently just ignore me. i mean come on what the hell is wrong with me? is there a big f'n sign on my forehead that says "Plague avoid at all cost!" i'm to the point to where i'm seriously about to go scream at myself in the mirror because i just need to be heard even if its only the germs that grow on surfaces. sometimes i feel like running away far, far, far away from where i am the connections i have and start freakin a'new. i think i now know why so many people go on there freakin suicidal murder sprees at school and other places. it's the freakin kids or adults who basically just chose not to take the time to talk to the kid or person who doesn't get any attention. i mean come on how freakin hard is it to say "hi, how are you?" or "cool shirt" or w/e that seems to include the person into this life that is so called. oh and no i'm not going to go buy a gun and bullets and go kill people i hold firmly to that "thou shall not murder" my southern gospel roots are firmly planted in me. do i feel better? eh, i guess. well i don't feel as angry or frustrated as i used to that's for sure. im done.